Midterms are over!

For now anyway. I have a week to breathe and then panic again. My goal to "get ahead" today did not fall through. I just needed a break. I've been here since 9:30 and class doesn't start until 2:00. I am feeling like such a girly girl. My sweater arrived in the mail today! It finally hit 65 degrees and I'm suddenly feeling nostalgic for winter back home. Insert the warm and fuzzy feelings here, here, and there. Right there. I can't wait to see everyone!

I've been smiling all day. Well, not true, but I wasn't frowning either! No worry wrinkles here :).

Behavior Modification

For every negative thing I think, write, or do, I should replace it with five things are that are incompatible with that action. And with every week, it should progress to seven or more. That's optimism on speed right there.

These two midterms are going to kill me.
80 questions = gateway to freedom to this week.
It'll let me focus on my other classes.
I'm studying right now so I'll be fine.
I have too high of a standard to let myself fail.
My sleep schedule didn't sync for nothing.

There.

Strength

I don't know what I have left in me but I know all I can do is pray and hope that my grandpa's okay. Every time I do this I feel guilty, even apologetic because I need or want something to happen. It's a selfish relationship that I have with God and it's not right. I'm in a limbo, yet I'm still here crossing my forehead, chest, and shoulders waiting for my anxieties to blow over.