2nd Generation

Why do Asian parents insist on trying to get the most out of you through pessimism? I know I’m stereotyping, but I mean the type of parents that ultimately want the best for you but always keep you on your toes with the questions, “What if it doesn’t work out?” or “Are you sure that’s what you want to do?”

Of course it’s what I want to do. I invested my 4 years into a major that I thought I could use to save the world (at least with one child or family at a time). Originally I thought I had no place to be in it when I first took a class in high school, but after jumping into the curriculum, I got better at it, then excelled in some of my classes. Shouldn’t that confidence continue to channel into my risks for applying for jobs after graduation without being cut short? It’s not even June yet and your words are assuming that I won’t get that job or that my plans will just fall through, or worse, that I second guess my decisions.

It’s too late to do that now, I need to start jumping and hoping something will catch me. I know this economy sucks to be graduating into and that having only one parent support the family is tough, but can’t there be faith that I could help with that burden and try to find my place in this adult world we call “real life”? As if being in school cuts you off from the rest of the world, because college students are so apathetic and close minded and have our noses stuck in books all day. I try to bridge that gap, y’know.

I just want to hear words of encouragement. I never like to admit it, but in the end I always try to impress you both and somehow leave myself to be second in priority. Everything you do is an investment and to think that your child is an investment is cruel, but I try to live up to it. You don’t get reassurance for tentative plans.